I found a small lump in my breast, it was tender so I went and saw my doctor. He sent me off for imaging, and then I saw a specialist who sent me off for a biopsy (that REALLY hurt). Then I was told I had a very small (8mm) cancerous tumour in my breast. I’m now an official member of the, “You’ve got cancer” club. I’m not impressed.
I’ve found the cancer so early that I probably only need surgery, radiotherapy and Tamoxifen to treat. This all depends on what the surgery and subsequent biopsies show really. It’s a fun environment of, “Do A, then possibly do B or C depending on results of A”. Being a big fan of plans, I plan to work out what is going to happen, how I will manage it, and what support I need.
This is a blog post (which may be updated as more info comes through, or new posts added, I’m not sure), which will outline what I want and don’t want over the next 6 months (as a starter).
Things I want
- To keep working as much as possible
- Snuggles
- Chocolate
- Plans
- Shoulders to lean/cry on
- Having meals cooked for me for those days I don’t cope
- Understanding
- Conversations with people who have survived cancer
Things I don’t want
- Advice regarding natural therapies for cancer treatment
- Being treated as if I’m going to fall apart any second
- Being told to take time off work
Kvetching circles completely apply here. This is my condition, my body, my issue. Do not make it about you, do not make it about how you can feel better that the roll of the dice went badly at my end. I have enough to deal with, without you making this about you. (This is not currently directed at anyone I’ve told, this is just case it needs saying).
I will continue to work, I will blog, I will study, I will cook, I will yoga, I will … because I enjoy these things, because they’re good for me, and because life goes on.
Sorry to hear this Bluebec. Glad you caught it early. (((Hugs)))
Holy hell! Thinking of you and yours.