What’s wrong with me?Posted: November 29, 2010 at 10:40 pm | Tags: body image, identity
For the past few weeks, the gym has become increasingly harder. Cardio (the rowing machine) has left me gasping for breath, and I’ve had to stop so I could breathe as I felt I wasn’t getting enough oxygen (no narrowing of vision though, just a sensation). I’ve been waking up more tired and almost falling asleep at work. I feel that no matter what I do I’m putting on extra weight. I look at the stairs at work and my body flatly tells me that climbing them is a VERY bad idea. Today when I was folding the washing and then making the bed, I was breathing heavily and sweating. I’m vague and forgetting things that normally I’d have no trouble in remembering.
I know I am actually really tired. I’ve had a very stressful month[s], I’ve not gotten all the sleep I should or need, and I worked for part of my weekend at Sexpo, as well as organising most of it, instead of resting. I hope that it’s just stress and exhaustion. I hope it’s nothing more serious, though sleep apnoea is also on the cards.
The worst thing is that right now I’m very unhappy with me, this is not how I normally feel. I know that my energy levels are up and down generally, but making the bed has never been an effort for me before. I also feel that I can’t do much about it right now because I’ve just become permanent at my lovely global multinational, and I don’t want to stuff that up.
So… I’ll make a GP appointment for Wednesday or Friday night and see what can be done. I know it might be as simple as low iron, slight asthma (worst asthma season in Melbourne for years), sleep apnoea, or stress. I’d like to know how to fix it, so I feel more like me again.